Written @ a time of uncertain w no one to trust but my daughter.

I dont believe in love anymore for a queen to be with me. 

 I only live and have love for my seed, I praise her as the most precious being.
She's my little queen, and daddy's her king,
no one can come in and change that.
though I know later in age she will be released to experience life,
and possibly be someones wife. 
Till then and after I will be her Rock, Daddy will never let her down.
grab her hand and walk her on the ocean shore,
and let her know everything will be alright,
passed every dark night will be morning to sunlight.
An it shines for her to reach, it shines for me to teach,
and enjoy the simple things like crackling sounds of leaves through the breeze.
Women have only brought pain and headache,
sex is temporary pleasure, after it, I only receive bad tempers, why didn't I know better? 
Maybe I choose insecure members?
I've dated many types, none are alike yet im never happy.
when u think U found one, U need to test it, otherwise, years later you'll regret it,
I love the female specimen but the female gives hell, can send u to jail.
Use all your money and yet not consider themselves  "greedy"
but what they receive they "deserve." 
U deserve to get your ass kicked, poured gasoline and lit, spit, fake as counterfeit,
Bitch your tongue should fall off because u never really tell the truth, you embellish it.
Save that sh*t,
U make a victim for people to feel sorry for,
and cry when your man walks out the door..
because he couldn't stand U anymore, 
Beware to those misled,
just because she gave u head and gave U a sandwich in bed, don't believe it, because you'll be disappointed when love is not what you receive it.... Silly you were deceived. 
I'll live , I'll live single...an happy
Till I'm dead, they won't catch me
And I say this laughingly
Because sometimes it's a part of life that some men have to see...

Dedicated to those that see with closed eyes...
****Realize 

Beauty is but a painted hell

A poem by one of my most favorite poets .

Beauty Is But A Painted Hell
by Thomas Campion

Beauty is but a painted hell :
        Aye me, aye me,
Shee wounds them that admire it,
Shee kils them that desire it.
        Giue her pride but fuell,
        No fire is more cruell.

Pittie from eu'ry heart is fled :
        Aye me, aye me,
Since false desire could borrow
Teares of dissembled sorrow,
        Constant vowes turn truthlesse,
        Loue cruele, Beauty ruthlesse.

Sorrow can laugh, and Fury sing :
        Aye me, aye me,
My rauing griefes discouer
I liu'd too true a louer :
        The first step to madnesse
        Is the excesse of sadnesse.

(year:1620, poem, song)

Freestyle 7/18/2008 (((THaProductz)))

Flowing off tha head from Dr.Dre Beat "forgot about Dre"

" it's only skin deep"

Is Beauty like the saying that "it's only skin deep"? 
I dont believe because, The more prettier the more they can deceive
Fake beauty always flaunted in music and tv..
...See the beauty with eyes closed
Or fail and be victim to consequence, 
be  in court like I overheard one guy say
" all this for a couple minutes of loving"
"now I owe $43,000 dollars  and something " 
Damn!  I would rather be hugging than this kind of fucking
To me Beauty is the saying "  making something out of nothing"
"making it," after many barriers confronting
Or maybe just one thing,  
As I look to the beauty of my child, that makes me smile 
Her nurtured intelligence, eyes of innocence 
God sent, that I love more than it be said 
My children, young and spirited,
With smiles so simple 
Yet the most beautiful
That can teach this vain world 
Or model, who's really just an anorexic girl 
Hurting a lot , turning to cocaine when it started with pot & found overdosed in the parking lot
At young thought without my Head
I was married once, so I guess you can say I was tricked by the serpent
Lazy, she did things only out of convenience, good riddance
But hey .. I wish u the best. "LEARN and never regret" 
24 hours in a day, damn I wish there was more, Im behind in debt
But Not in currency, but consistency of creativity
Attempt to live, live to it's truest form of quality, 
while getting my masters degree, 
But does that make you Master to my own destiny? 
Writing, just writing is calm and soothing to me....
Because it let's my mind breath
So what is beauty ? 
To that, one needs to take a closer scrutiny. 

Song I dedicate to those friends I will never See again...Well meet up again

Lyrics:
The day I found my soul, I felt it
Die inside of me, yeah.
So I turn to you; life is
Like that, you know.

I have your face
In a photo in high school,
When you were alive,
But thats all I have.
And I cant remember
Who I was myself, then.
And it doesnt help;
Still I look to you as a friend
To tell me:

Who we are now, who we are.
It's who we are now, who we are.
Where does time go now,
On a wake for young souls?
You tell me,
Who we are now, who we are.
Where does time go now,
On a wake for young souls?

Like a lullaby, you sing:
Oh, ooo. Oh, ooo. Oh, ooo, ooo.

Well, the wind that blows...
It's blowing colder.
And the child that grows...
Shes growing older.
And the friends we've known,
Theyll turn a shoulder.
The friends we know,
They're growing colder, so...

It's who we are now, who we are.
It's who we are now, who we are.
Where does time go now,
On a wake for young souls?
You tell me,
Who we are now, who we are.
It's who we are now, who we are.
Woah, woah,
On a wake for young souls.

Wheres my soul? Where's my soul? Where's my soul?

Where's my soul?

Where's my soul?

Cycle of the moon brings blood to the woman,
And the blood of the woman brings birth of a child;
Child grow up, he forget himself and
Birth of a child comes someplace wild.
Even grey days beat the shade to wean,
Unbodied, unsouled, unheard, unseen.
Let the gift be grown in the time to call our own;
Let the gift be sewn, for the window's closing.
Truth is natural like the wind that blows;
Follow it's direction, no matter where it goes.
So it shall be: the earth, and the sea.
Let the truth blow like a hurricane through me.

Oh, oo. Oh, oo. Oh, oo, ooo.

If Ive been cold,
If Ive spoken in anger
To have been bold,
Forgive me. You know, I
Dont see your mother,
Not like before,
Though she hasnt forgotten...
She doesnt like to be reminded anymore.
And Annie got married it:
It didnt come with out tears.
Like the day you died:
I have nothing for these years, so,

It's who we are now, who we are.
It's who we are now, who we are.
Where does time go now
On a wake for young souls, now?
It's who we are now, who we are.
It's who we are now, who we are.
Woah, woah,
On a wake for young souls.

Other things, you know, are gonna
Fall away from me
Like a grain of sand
Slips through a good friend's hand

Lyrics from" patience" by Nas & Damian Marley " distant relatives" album.

This song and lyrics and the way it was spit...magical
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mnplLOYoS_g&sns=em


Patience lyrics

[Damian Marley - Verse 1]
Some of the smartest dummies
Can't read the language of Egyptian mummies
An' a fly go a moon
And can't find food for the starving tummies
Pay no mind to the youths
Cause it's not like the future depends on it
But save the animals in the zoo
Cause the chimpanzee dem a make big money
This is how the media pillages
On the TV the picture is
Savages in villages
And the scientist still can't explain the pyramids, huh
Evangelists making a living on the videos of ribs of the little kids
Stereotyping the image of the images
And this is what the image is
You buy a khaki pants
And all of a sudden you say a Indiana Jones
An' a thief out gold and thief out the scrolls and even the buried bones
Some of the worst paparazzis I've ever seen and I ever known
Put the worst on display so the world can see
And that's all they will ever show
So the ones in the west
Will never move east
And feel like they could be at home
Dem get tricked by the beast
But a where dem ago flee when the monster is fully grown?
Solomonic linage whe dem still can't defeat and them coulda never clone
My spiritual DNA that print in my soul and I will forever Own Lord

[Hook]

[Nas talking]
Yeah, Sabali. Thats patience. That's what the old folks told me...
Discovering the World before this World. A World buried in time.
Uncover with rhymes. It gets no realer.

[Damian Marley: Verse 2]
Huh, we born not knowing, are we born knowing all?
We growing wiser, are we just growing tall?
Can you read thoughts? can you read palms?
Huh, can you predict the future? can you see storms, coming?
The Earth was flat if you went too far you would fall off
Now the Earth is round if the shape change again everybody woulda start laugh
The average man can't prove of most of the things that he chooses to speak of
And still won't research and find out the root of the truth that you seek of
Scholars teach in Universities and claim that they're smart and cunning
Tell them find a cure when we sneeze and that's when their nose start running
And the rich get stitched up, when we get cut
Man a heal dem broken bones in the bush with the wed mud
Can you read signs? can you read stars?
Can you make peace? can you fight war?
Can you milk cows, even though you drive cars? huh
Can you survive, Against All Odds, Now?

[Hook]

[Nas]
It's crazy when you feed people the truth you don't know how they're gonna react. You're scared of wrong doers, people that just ignorant, You're scared of the truth, be patient for now.

[Nas: Verse 3]
Who wrote the Bible? Who wrote the Qur'an?
And was it a lightning storm
That gave birth to the Earth
And then dinosaurs were born? damn
Who made up words? who made up numbers?
And what kind of spell is mankind under?
Everything on the planet we preserve and can it
Microwaved it and try it
No matter what we'll survive it
What's hue? what's man? what's human?
Anything along the land we consuming
Eatin', deletin', ruin
Trying to get paper
Gotta have land, gotta have acres
So I can sit back like Jack Nicholson
Watch n-ggas play the game like the lakers
In a world full of 52 fakers
Gypsies, seances, mystical prayers
You superstitious? throw salt over your shoulders
Make a wish for the day cuz
Like somebody got a doll of me
Stickin' needles in my arteries
But I can't feel it
Sometimes it's like 'pardon me, but I got a real big spirit'
I'm fearless.... I'm fearless
Don't you try and grab hold of my soul
It's like a military soldier since seven years old
I held real dead bodies in my arms
Felt their body turn cold, oh
Why we born in the first place
If this is how we gotta go?
Damn.

This goes to all the wisdom and knowledge seekers of the World. Sabali, Patience, yeah.
[End]

Lyrics courtesy of Distant Relatives.

Thank you

what is of tomorrow ?
When there's nothing or no one to follow?
When your sunshine gets casted in a cloud, gray of sorrow?
I search for the truth, past my once age of curious youth
past the time of my last fallen tooth
In guidance I still look up to you
forgive me of my sins
I love you
I always wanted you to be proud to me
that's why I stayed away from the penitentiary
stayed in school and got a degree
Because you were always looking out for me
Your teachings help define me
During the worst of times, I lied to you, wife and lied to me
Now as a father, experience and wisdom to my seeds offer
Teach of the learned mistakes of their careless father
but to nothing regret because these were lessons
not to forget nor for a second neglect
I just want to thank you in this most precious day
when things look dismay
I just want to thank you of the teacher to me you became
You brought me back to live truth
you killed my once devilish youth
killed my lies with the tears in
my eyes
and for that I eternally love you
Your Son
May 13, 2007